Hey guys! I'm sure you may of been a little confused by the title of this blog, but it's not what you might assume. Simply put, there are two things I'd like to address this blog....one, "our" loss tonight against Maryse and Natalya and, yep you guessed it, the Haloween contest at Cyber Sunday!

Tonight was a disappointing loss for me. I love Maria to death, BUT what happened? We were clearly in control, I go to give her the tag & her back is to me. I'm not sure what she was doing b/c I was in the middle of the match focused on getting the win. Low and behold, Maryse got a quick rollup. Didn't know Maryse could think that fast...just joking! :) I tried to talk to her after the match, but she seemed more concerned about finding Festus than the fact that we had just lost a stinking match. A little lost at this point. I would never betray someone I call my friend, I just hope she gets it together before next week.

So.....another halloween contest this year at Cyber Sunday. My goal...not to come in last: again :)))) I was having a hard time trying to figure out what to be since there have been so many great costumes already done over the past few years....so I decided to go with something I love - CAMO!!!!

I decided I'd be an army girl....maybe even "Mjr. Trouble!" :) Maybe it's the souther girl in me, but I find camo to be incredibly hot. Hopefully, the WWE universe will think so too! Be sure to watch on Sunday....and more importantly vote! Love you all...hope you all are better than ever.

Faith to fight the good fight., heart to believe and soul to search within!

Dream Big....love you all - MM

Take a second to let the following sink in. I read these and thought they were great, so I wanted to share...........

"Faith isn't faith until it's all you're holding on to!"

"You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith!"

"Faith means believing in things when common sense tells you not to!"

Think about that. It's not always the easiest thing to do when standing up for what you believe. It's not easy to filter out all the negative things people say and/or write about you. It's not easy to go down the road less traveled. It's not easy to always be yourself. BUT....if you have faith; faith in yourself, faith in what you believe and faith to hold on to - that's ALL you need!

Thanksgiving was great. Thanks to all of you who sent well wishes. And....as my headline says "It's the most wonderful time of the year!" I absolutely love Christmas. I just can't get enough of spending time laughing (and stuffing my face) with my family, buying gifts for everyone and just seeing smile on everyones faces. We have our "McCool" family Christmas this week which is exciting. I guess you could say the McCool's go both traditional and untraditional when comes to our get-together. We do gag gifts for all of the adults, which can get pretty embarassing at times! Speaking of....I still have to get my gift!

Anyhow, as always.....I'll try to answer the most common questions/comments I've gotten from you guys this week.

Wings of Love: Yes, I haven't used it in quite some time now, but that's not by choice. Truth is, I'm not allowed to use it anymore. Apparently, it was too devastating for us girls! Seriously....

The only good thing about that is that I debuted a new one on Marsye this weekend and believe me, I think you'll be impressed. I have to keep it under wraps for now until I use it on tv. Hopefully, it's not too rough for us girls :)

The Divas Championship: The bullseye gets bigger by the week. Every girl is gunning for me and causing me to act a little out of the norm. Maria cost me to get eliminated at Survivor Series by Mickie which just about pushed me over the edge. Since then, I have the mindset that nothing will stop me now. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to keep the title around my waist! Most of you guys have been so supportive and encouraging and to that, I say thank you!

On the other hand....there are many of you that have made it very clear that Maryse and/or Maria deserve it way more than me because I'm just a "diva search reject!":)))And to that....I also say thank you! I love proving people wrong. There's nothing that pushes and motivates me more than naysayers! I do have one little piece of info though to those of you who sent those comments. I love how people so quickly forget that I have been here four years and worked my butt off every single day....pitching storylines, training at DSW, working in the ring, doing appearances, etc...Not just that, but in case you forgot - I'm certainly not the only "diva search reject" under contract right now. Let's see.....Maria, Maryse, Candice. I'm sure there are others I may have forgotten. But it's alright....just know that you also inspire me by hating me! Even if you don't like me, I hope that I can break the barrier and have you respect me!

Until next time...Happy Holidays...faith to fight the good fight, heart to believe and soul to search within!

Love,

Michelle